Slim wanna be

Same as others women in this world, I want to look slim too. Because in our mind set, slim means beauty and beauty means slim.
Silly, right? Hahahhahahahhahaa

And same as others women over thirthy in this world, I have a problem to loose my weight at my age. PS: Actually, it is easier to me to be slim if I am in stress condition. Last year around Jan - April, at the height 155 cm, my weight was just 40 kg!!!!!!!!! But after that? Uh ......
(and I do not want to get stress just because want to be slimm)

I think eventhough I just drink water everyday, that water would be a fat at my body .....hahhahahaahaha. I am sure 100 % about this.

My siblings (red: my brothers), my friends who are men always said, that nothings wrong with my body, not slim but not fat at all. Uhm.....

But again, because of my single status (or because I am the long lasting single hahahhahaa), I think no one want ask me to go out with them because I am not as slim as others women.
(yes ... I knew, it is sooooooooo silly, but still I could not wash my brain yet for my way of thinking )

And like others women who want to be slim...... I was doing many kind of ritual for being slim, from just eat 1 times a day until forbid my self to eat all the sweet things .....

But it worked for 1 or 2 days ....... and then just create many reasons to allow me to eat all the sweet things again without feel quilty at all ............ LOL

The bad things about the slim wanna be sickness, same like others women in this world, I feel lazy to go to gym and do exercise there :-) I just want to be a slim without must do a lot of work and without have to take a lot of time too :-)
(yes .... I knew .... it is silly too)

Beside it same like others women in this world, I am so envy with women who can eat anything but still slim, or even envy with women who are going pregnant but still slim. How can be like this!!!!!!!!!!!

SO ...... please please and please if you have a good slim recipe, please tell me as soon as possible

Or at least please carry me to the brain wash station to wash my brain so I can clear my brain from all the slim wanna be thinking ..... LOL

Haven't met you yet

Saturday night mean my lonely time ussually.
Time where I have to face the truth that I am alone :-(

Not mean that I do not have friends outside or my siblings and their family will let me alone. Yes I have a lot of friends, yes, I think I could call them and will have my fun time with them and of course 100 % yes, that my siblings and their family will love to join with me and spent their time with me as the part of their live .

But escape from my loneliness by brought a ton of works from my office sometimes was not effiecient and effective to kill this lonely felling. Especially when you thought that your dateline almost come and after you read the document again and again you knew that dateline still 2 weeks again ......... Oh no !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For what you were working hard at Saturday night, then?

So I stop worked, closed all the documents and was starting to open Youtube and searching all the nice music to join me when I was filling what ever quiz that available at Facebook :-)

Do you know one of my favorite at FB is the quiz things.

Than ..... I found this songs by Michael Buble (first time I saw his face, I thought that he could not sing at all, just sold his handsome face ..... hahhhahahhahhaa (sorry Michael) but I was so wrong (the lesson :don't judge book from it's cover :-)) ... he is handsome and can sing as well as his face, and than now I am the one of his fans)

The title is : " Haven't met you yet"

this is the part of the lyric:

I might have to wait

I'll never give up

I gues it's half timing

and the other half's luck

wherever you are, whenever it's right

you come out of nowhere and into my life

........

I just haven't met you yet

So I think about what happend to me

Yes, I've broken my heart so many times

until actually I feel afraid to fall in love anymore.

I was so afraid that I can't stand this time if I have to break my heart.

Build the high and strong wall to protect my heart, so no one can come in.

And said to everybody, I am alone because no one want to be with me.

But how can I find the love of my life if I do not want to open my heart?

So the first thing that I must do .... I have to open my mind, open my heart.

See all the possibilty and should not give up.

And if one day, I break my heart again ....

it is just simple reason .......

that is only because I haven't met my soulmate yet.

That I still need time to find him.

Beside that life is still beautiful even you are over thirty and single, right?

Jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fighting !!!!!!!!!!!