Slim wanna be

Same as others women in this world, I want to look slim too. Because in our mind set, slim means beauty and beauty means slim.
Silly, right? Hahahhahahahhahaa

And same as others women over thirthy in this world, I have a problem to loose my weight at my age. PS: Actually, it is easier to me to be slim if I am in stress condition. Last year around Jan - April, at the height 155 cm, my weight was just 40 kg!!!!!!!!! But after that? Uh ......
(and I do not want to get stress just because want to be slimm)

I think eventhough I just drink water everyday, that water would be a fat at my body .....hahhahahaahaha. I am sure 100 % about this.

My siblings (red: my brothers), my friends who are men always said, that nothings wrong with my body, not slim but not fat at all. Uhm.....

But again, because of my single status (or because I am the long lasting single hahahhahaa), I think no one want ask me to go out with them because I am not as slim as others women.
(yes ... I knew, it is sooooooooo silly, but still I could not wash my brain yet for my way of thinking )

And like others women who want to be slim...... I was doing many kind of ritual for being slim, from just eat 1 times a day until forbid my self to eat all the sweet things .....

But it worked for 1 or 2 days ....... and then just create many reasons to allow me to eat all the sweet things again without feel quilty at all ............ LOL

The bad things about the slim wanna be sickness, same like others women in this world, I feel lazy to go to gym and do exercise there :-) I just want to be a slim without must do a lot of work and without have to take a lot of time too :-)
(yes .... I knew .... it is silly too)

Beside it same like others women in this world, I am so envy with women who can eat anything but still slim, or even envy with women who are going pregnant but still slim. How can be like this!!!!!!!!!!!

SO ...... please please and please if you have a good slim recipe, please tell me as soon as possible

Or at least please carry me to the brain wash station to wash my brain so I can clear my brain from all the slim wanna be thinking ..... LOL