really badly want to hear that 3 words (how are you)

Do you know, that 3 words "how are you" is the words that I always asked to everybody before I begin to talk with them.

But that 3 words are the words which really asked by people to me hahhahahhhaahaha

Yes, only me (around 90%) who always asking my friends (actually all people that I knew) "how are you" first especially if I did not hear their news long time, not just lips service but I really want to know how are them, it is really from the bottom of my heart. If you asked me why, it is because I care about them.
(Or may be because I have too much times actually or may be because I am like kind of old people who are sooooooooo lonely so need some one to talk with hahhhahhahhaha)

But last week, when I was sooooo tired and got worse flue ....... for the first time I realize that, actually rarely people asked me "how are you" first . Almost never. And I missed that worlds said by someone to me, same like what I did to them. Really really badly wanted to hear that 3 words. But still ......... (even until now, no one did )

So since last Monday, I did not ask any body first. I badly wanted that some one ask me first!!!!!!!!!!! hahahhahhaaha
Can you imagine?

I feel afraid with that syndrome ...... do you think it is kind of syndrome which is always happen to women above thirty and single? I really feel afraid that I will became lonely single old woman, who feell loney and bother with every body to care about her?
Oh my God .............
make me feel afraid now hahahhahhaaha

But even feel afraid with that syndrome, I still could not reject my will to hear someone who ask me (from the bottom of his/her heart) first by "how are you"

Uhmmmmmmmmm