My Bless Birthday

Last week I celebrated my birthday. Don't ask me my age :D, and don't worry too cause I am still thirty something not yet become forty something. LOL

I did not celebrate it with birthday cake and neither with candle especially candle with number. Hahahahaha I did not celebrate with my family or my usual friends. I even a bit isolated by any modern technology as Internet because my blackberry which is usually work well and very loyal to me, that time was useless, could not use it at all, even as telephone.

But I told you clearly that it was one of my greatest happy birthd. For the first time I felt so touchy and for the first time since I knew about birthday .. I did not cry at my birthday at all, just smile and laugh whole day. My friends who saw my pictures at my birthday, all said that I looked so bright and so happy.

And for the first time, I felt that I am also the beautiful one in this planet :D. May be people who made my birthday so bright never realize how the meaningful it was for me. May be for that person, it was something common. But, for me? It was more than special, it was super duper special. I wanted to say thank you and thank you and thank you but it seems that no words could really express what I felt. It is hard to express my thankful. Just could give my best smile Just could give my warm heart, without knowing if it is enough or not. Uhm .... I did not know how to express it without looked like lips service or looked like that artificial. Yup sometimes I did not good to handle kind of this situation so sometimes looked like I did not care enough with what people do to me. Uhm ..... God, I really want to say my thankful to this lovely person .... but how to do? Please give me an idea ....

Do you ever feel that? It is more than kind you want to show someone your love. It is more than that. It is more than grateful. Or kind of mixing from love and grateful?

Oh God, same to that person, I could not be able to show You too .... how grateful I am. Thank you so much God for the beautiful birthday. I love You so much.

How to get husband :D (Part 1)

One of my resolution this year is I want to get marry (of course I will postpone if someone ask me to wait for him- I will waiting as long as he wants :D ) And as you know, this year will end in around three months again and I still do not have any relationship until now , so ..... I feel a bit panic :D Yes, I am kind of silly woman - who just panic because nobody propose me. But do you know I am a single woman above thirty years old who always crazy about marry things hahahahhaa.

Of course like others women, I tried to find advices from all friends that I have about how to get husband in a short times :D

Last week, my adviser were all the working women in my age. Like others working women in Jakarta, they all are almost in same type: have a partner (I mean husband), long and curly hair, full of make up, smell good, a bit sexy dress (I mean looks sexy but not cheap), big boobs (cause all already have a child - so their boobs cup minimal C ..ehm ...ehm ) maintained nails (beautiful nail polish - from this you will know already that they never do any domestic worked - all done by maid :D), blink blink jewelry and the important things is - the high heels is the must for them :D

So can you imagine, how different I am actually with them (looks like earth and sky). And a bit jealousy come in my heart of course (hi ... I am still human)

And they first advices : I should overcome my ego - they mean that I should try to make my hair longer, not too short like now ( sigh sigh sigh). They said, every men usually loves to see woman with long hair because its so feminine in their eyes.

The second advices: I should try hard to really learn to use make up like them to retouch my face become better, not only just moisturizer and lipstick which I always used :D I should be able to cover my face flaw.

The two of advices are given to me by them because they said, man usually see woman from the outlook first. It is the reason why it is so important for woman to take care their outlook, their outer beauty first and it is not enough just use a neat clothes but must more afford for it. This all ladies surprised when I said, I just need around 10 minutes to get ready if someone ask me to go out suddenly (uhm, I think that is the reason why no man ever say "hi" to me or flirt me when I was alone. LOL) . They said may be I can try to use wig for my hair first and try to learn hard to use more make up for my face.

The third advices : I should not show up how smart I am. Because men always want to show us how clever they are. So if I took their part, they will feel ill feel. When I said, all my male friends, like to discuss something with me because they think that I am quite smart. But this lovely women, said ... of course they like to discuss with me because my male friends do not think that I am a woman !!!! It is hurt me a bit. Why my male friends do not think that I am a woman !!!!!!!!!! I was using a skirt or mini dress and my high heels sometimes in front of them. Uhm ........ I should ask them clearly about it.

You see .... just three advices from them ...... but it is hard for me to do, it looks like that I have to change my whole personality (they said it is not about my personality but about my ego - do I want to change myself for one man?)

A bit frustrated for me. Not mean that I never had a long hair before, of course I ever had. But now days, it is easier for me with my short hair because I feel younger and easy to care my short hair.

And about show my smart mind. I do not mean to show people how smart I am, but I like if I meet people who want to discuss something with me - especially if I can gain many information and knowledge beside that I like to share what I knew to others too. So, it not mean that I want to show how smart I am.

Uh ... do you think, it is really no man in this world will accept me just the way I am? Is it really important outer look for man? How about heart ? How about politeness? How about manner? How about inner outlook?

Uhm .... almost give up. LOL

So ... really can't wait to go to next groups to get more advices about how to get husband .... :D

Wish me luck (drucken mich die Daumen -bitte)

The reason why I love rain

I always love rain since I was child, first because I am staying at the warmest country. Indonesia just have 2 season, dry season and rain season. Of course it will not be too hot like in Arabic countries, but around thirty seven or six degree Celcius, it is not comfortable so when it is raining, it is kind of big mercy for me :D

Second, I have a problem to think something if I am staying at place where it is too hot, I feel like my brain melted. LOL So, if the electricity is cut off and no Air Conditioner or when I have to stay outdoor, I could not think clearly, make me get headache :D

I can have many ideas and so creative when it is raining, I can finish my task fast when it is raining. Feel like I have a lot of energies from the rain. LOL

I love to walk under the rain, I love to day dreaming when it is raining. Rain always make s me feel so romantic :D So can you imagine, one of my favorite when I have my someone special? Yup being with him and see the rain :D Of course I am more lucky if he wants to join with me to walk under the rain :D

Unfortunately it is already a few months since the last rain in here. I am missing it so much.

Wish it will raining in here soon ........