(again) why I do not have any boy friend yet

Why I do not have any boy friend yet.

Uhm .... actually this is kind of bored question for me. I do not know the answer too. I do not know why no one wants me to be their boy friend :)

Many people always said that I am too picky. And to tell you honestly how can I be too picky if I do not have any choice, people who will be the candidate for my boyfriend. LOL. I know, no one believe it, but that is the fact. I am single fighter who is going around alone or with all my marriage friends.

And the other said that I am workaholic, and to tell you the truth ... no I am not. Yes of course there is a time where I have to work until late, but I still have time to go out with my friends.

Or people said that I am carrier woman, who wants to reach high carrier and do not care about my life. But no ... I do not have any carrier, so which kind of carrier that I am trying to reach?

Or they asked me me whether I am feminist, uhm I am not kind of feminist or gender obsess, of course I am talking much about gender equity, bias gender, about how women struggle to get their right, but I am still normal woman, who need man in my life LOL

There is many times when I feel so lonely and a bit envy to see couple people walking together or to see my siblings and my in laws.

There is many times when I see at the mirror and ask if there is something wrong with my face so nobody wants to be with me, or many times I ask my mirror if something wrong with my habit, myself so no one want to be with me. LOL

That is the reason why I am so wonder if one of my friend has many boy friends in the same time or has a husband and boyfriend at the same time or faster to get a new boy friend or husband after broken heart or after divorce.

I ever asked them, what should I do to be like them. Mostly they said, if you are alone just send a man your best temptation smile and glance, usually that man will come to you. Hi ... I do not have any self confidence to do that. I know I can make joke and many man like me because of that, but usually I can do that if they are already my friend. I can tell many of funny stories to my friends but not to the strangers. I have to feel comfortable with them first, so I can talk much with them.

I do not know how to tempt or seduce a strange man. I do not know how to make them get interested with me. And I have no idea what is wrong with me actually :D

It is different if they do this first step to me. Smile to me or seduce me hahahahhhaa. But uhm ... I do not know why they never do that to me. My sister even ever so amazed me when I told her that, until my age now, no man ever smile to me or seduce me when they saw me sit down alone in the coffee shop, restaurant or even in the night club. She said ...how can no one ever do that to you, because you are not too ugly. But again .... I do not know the answer.

That is the reason why I always ask my friends, my families to match me with someone they knew. It is easier than I have find man by my self. LOL

Uhm ... do you want a bit nice to me, tell me what I should do to have some one who is falling in love with me and want to be my boy friend and then one day wants to propose me to be his wife? Do you think that I am actually too ugly? Too bad? Too stupid?

And if you were single man, would you fall in love with me and would you ask me to be your girlfriend or to be your wife? I know, you must be so nice and said yes hahahhahhahhahaaha

How ever, would you please be so kind and give me your advice?